You can talk to other people, the only thing stoppin' you from doin' it was me, and I'm not a factor anymore. Okay? I'm not gonna be a factor, do you think I fuckin' want that, because I don't! I don't. So - I'll make myself matter not at all, okay, and at least then I'll hate myself a fraction less.

[ and he can rebuild the walls higher and better this time, because he knows how strong they have to be. no one is allowed inside. ]

We can still...do stuff. Just not entire days or huge amounts of time. Casual. Like with the girls. It was stupid as fuck to let things work out like this, relyin' on one another this much.