[ it depends on how well he can stick to the exact truth. ]
It was a different sort of trust issue before this and it wasn't somethin' I couldn't just straight up ignore. You wanted to go and that's always mattered more than whatever the fuck I thought about it. [ be honest. how? the words are measured and slow, like he's walking on a road he's never been down before in pure darkness. ] it was about how much I lost and how stupid it was to care, and how I knew it was more important that you got what you wanted. Because you bein' happy mattered more than anything else did. It still does. It's just harder to give it to you.
I don't trust anyone the way you ask me to trust you. I don't trust anyone the way I used to. It's about me and maybe it's about him and it's definitely about every single one of you and the way it can't be understood and the way I don't want it to be.
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It was a different sort of trust issue before this and it wasn't somethin' I couldn't just straight up ignore. You wanted to go and that's always mattered more than whatever the fuck I thought about it. [ be honest. how? the words are measured and slow, like he's walking on a road he's never been down before in pure darkness. ] it was about how much I lost and how stupid it was to care, and how I knew it was more important that you got what you wanted. Because you bein' happy mattered more than anything else did. It still does. It's just harder to give it to you.
I don't trust anyone the way you ask me to trust you. I don't trust anyone the way I used to. It's about me and maybe it's about him and it's definitely about every single one of you and the way it can't be understood and the way I don't want it to be.